In Love With Hell
演唱：El Sicario、EL FRIDAYou know what’s funny?
I used to think I made you up.
Some twisted fantasy…
A man so broken, he wore brilliance like perfume—
Loud, intoxicating… but gone by morning.
You walk like you own the silence.
Smile like sorrow is a joke.
And talk like pain is a poem only you can write.
But I see you.
I see the rot behind the gold.
I see the boy hiding in the monster's mouth.
You call it confidence
I call it camouflage.
You bathe in applause
But scream in private.
You hate being alone,
But run from anyone who stays.
Why?
Why do you do that?
Why do you break the ones who reach for you?
Why do you hand me hope
Then laugh as it shatters in my hands?
You kiss me like I matter,
Then ghost me like I never did.
You preach loyalty,
But you flinch at commitment like it’s a loaded gun.
You say you're real—
But you're two people.
One who needs me,
And one who needs me to leave.
You're toxic… but you care.
You're violent… but you cry.
You're numb… but your heart still limps behind your ribs,
Begging for something you won't admit you want.
Why are you like this?
Answer me!
Why do I feel like I’m in love with a stranger
Wearing your face?
You don’t need enemies…
You sabotage yourself better than anyone else ever could.
I used to want to save you.
Now I just wanna survive you.
don't wait
don't wait till that pain takes you away
don't wait thinking I can ever change
don't wait trying to free me from my cage
don't stay
don't stay thinking you can heal my pain
don't stay living with me else you'll get slained
cos already I'm dead it's just my demon's that's awake
That's the way I am, no you can't come to love the man I am
don't bring yourself to love the way I am
cos even i myself, really hate the man I am
yeah baby I'm just complicated
if you don't understand you'll hate me
stop asking why, I can't explain it
just make sure you're not tryna save me
I'm dead inside
It's better now that you draw the line
All my demon's not satisfied
I'll be this way till I die
yeah baby I'm just complicated
if you don't understand you'll hate me
stop asking why, I can't explain it
just make sure you're not tryna save me
don't wait
don't wait till that pain takes you away
don't wait thinking I can ever change
don't wait trying to free me from my cage
Please don't stay
don't stay thinking you can heal my pain
don't stay living with me else you'll get slained
cos already I'm dead it's just my demon's that's awake
That's the way I am, no you can't come to love the man I am
don't bring yourself to love the way I am
Don't wait (please don't wait)
Please don't stay (oh no)
Can you please go away(just go)
Cos I cannot be saved (nah)
Please don't wait(please don't)
Can you please go away(just go)
I can't change (yeah)
I used to think I made you up.
Some twisted fantasy…
A man so broken, he wore brilliance like perfume—
Loud, intoxicating… but gone by morning.
You walk like you own the silence.
Smile like sorrow is a joke.
And talk like pain is a poem only you can write.
But I see you.
I see the rot behind the gold.
I see the boy hiding in the monster's mouth.
You call it confidence
I call it camouflage.
You bathe in applause
But scream in private.
You hate being alone,
But run from anyone who stays.
Why?
Why do you do that?
Why do you break the ones who reach for you?
Why do you hand me hope
Then laugh as it shatters in my hands?
You kiss me like I matter,
Then ghost me like I never did.
You preach loyalty,
But you flinch at commitment like it’s a loaded gun.
You say you're real—
But you're two people.
One who needs me,
And one who needs me to leave.
You're toxic… but you care.
You're violent… but you cry.
You're numb… but your heart still limps behind your ribs,
Begging for something you won't admit you want.
Why are you like this?
Answer me!
Why do I feel like I’m in love with a stranger
Wearing your face?
You don’t need enemies…
You sabotage yourself better than anyone else ever could.
I used to want to save you.
Now I just wanna survive you.
don't wait
don't wait till that pain takes you away
don't wait thinking I can ever change
don't wait trying to free me from my cage
don't stay
don't stay thinking you can heal my pain
don't stay living with me else you'll get slained
cos already I'm dead it's just my demon's that's awake
That's the way I am, no you can't come to love the man I am
don't bring yourself to love the way I am
cos even i myself, really hate the man I am
yeah baby I'm just complicated
if you don't understand you'll hate me
stop asking why, I can't explain it
just make sure you're not tryna save me
I'm dead inside
It's better now that you draw the line
All my demon's not satisfied
I'll be this way till I die
yeah baby I'm just complicated
if you don't understand you'll hate me
stop asking why, I can't explain it
just make sure you're not tryna save me
don't wait
don't wait till that pain takes you away
don't wait thinking I can ever change
don't wait trying to free me from my cage
Please don't stay
don't stay thinking you can heal my pain
don't stay living with me else you'll get slained
cos already I'm dead it's just my demon's that's awake
That's the way I am, no you can't come to love the man I am
don't bring yourself to love the way I am
Don't wait (please don't wait)
Please don't stay (oh no)
Can you please go away(just go)
Cos I cannot be saved (nah)
Please don't wait(please don't)
Can you please go away(just go)
I can't change (yeah)